The truth is, I don\u2019t know what to do anymore. It seems the extreme right wing government, of which Geert Wilders is a member is about to be finalized. The talks so far have included the usual burqa bans, banning the Qur\u2019an, passing legislation to stop all immigration from \u201cNon Western" countries and even the possible ethnic registration of immigrants living here.<\/p>\n
All of the above paired with some personal stuff (financial crisis\/ not many customers\/ etc.) has driven me very much over the edge. I am sad in ways I haven\u2019t been in a long time. I worry about the future. Mine and my family\u2019s. I hardly ever write personal pieces (as in, \u201cthis is what\u2019s going on in my life\u201d) because I don\u2019t think it is all that important. But today\u2026 I just don\u2019t know anymore. This voice inside telling me \u201cwhy bother, who cares, just stop it\u201d. And it ain\u2019t nice. It\u2019s stifling, it\u2019s disheartening and it makes me feel lonely.<\/p>\n
I just wish there was a place to go where I wouldn\u2019t have to worry about all this. Personal experience has taught me that there isn\u2019t such a place, though. And that this is all there is.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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