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blackamazon<\/a>:<\/p>\n

\n

So I went off this morning a bout HS here<\/a><\/p>\n

because I keep saying , I don\u2019t want to PUNISH HIM . I want to protect and build for US .<\/p>\n

( Copyrighted by CC cause well I\u2019m hopeful not new)<\/p>\n

I want a better world.<\/p>\n

for me specifically, me locationally, me intersectionally, me connectedly.<\/p>\n

As a singular person, as resident of these communities I move through, as a member of the categories I inhabit,have lived, will live, may want to live, lived and never want to love again.\u00a0As a friend, a child, a family member, as a loved one, as a lover of ones, as a citizen, as a bystander, as an audience.\u00a0I want each moment , to be as good or better, I want it to feel good, and safe , like I\u2019m in control.<\/p>\n

After these past couple months, but culminating over these YEARS of blogging, I keep getting asked that and it\u2019s always felt like a weapon?<\/p>\n

“ What do you want?"\u00a0<\/p>\n

aka<\/p>\n

What do you actual want instead of complaining you whining crying black, fat, do nothing not good enough attention seeking stupid hating ass hater?<\/p>\n

Now I am being asked that question in love.\u00a0<\/p>\n

And it requires pause.<\/p>\n

I think all of us who do the work in a certain way do that .<\/p>\n

” If things get better for ( insert my groups here). My personal wants will too and I\u2019ll do good , so let me sublimate those and focus on the goal"<\/p>\n

Most of my heroines did that , work tirelessly fiercely , develop strong careers , enduring reputations, godlike patience and incredible praise . Tinged with the sorrow of how often it was personally taxing or unstable, seemingly alone.<\/p>\n

What I want from WAM\/Seal Press\/Blogging\/ Femfuture\/Hugo\/femfuture retreat\/ etc \u2026<\/p>\n

Read More<\/a><\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n

To everyone who’s been asking, here’s Blackamazon’s answer to the “what do you want?” question. Click through to read the rest.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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