parquepatriciosailatan replied to your post: I know this isn’t the point of the rant

stupid ask isn’t working well, so I don’t know if you got my message.

Yes! Yes I did and I responded to you privately!

And I got several others which are very, very touching. I am not posting them because I feel like it looks like a cheap attention seeking tactic. I swear to you all it wasn’t.

For all I write about empowering people to believe in themselves, I must confess I also have my moments of deep self hatred, where I doubt myself and fall into a “I hate EVERYTHING” spiral. I suppose I come across as aloof most of the time, what with the fact that I don’t talk about myself much, etc. But I do have feelings, even though in moments like now they are not nice.

I don’t even know why I let a stranger’s opinion affect me. In the end, I guess I never stopped being the eight year old child who wrote poems and sought validation from adults.

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