What I want
So I went off this morning a bout HS here
because I keep saying , I don’t want to PUNISH HIM . I want to protect and build for US .
( Copyrighted by CC cause well I’m hopeful not new)
I want a better world.
for me specifically, me locationally, me intersectionally, me connectedly.
As a singular person, as resident of these communities I move through, as a member of the categories I inhabit,have lived, will live, may want to live, lived and never want to love again. As a friend, a child, a family member, as a loved one, as a lover of ones, as a citizen, as a bystander, as an audience. I want each moment , to be as good or better, I want it to feel good, and safe , like I’m in control.
After these past couple months, but culminating over these YEARS of blogging, I keep getting asked that and it’s always felt like a weapon?
“ What do you want?"
What do you actual want instead of complaining you whining crying black, fat, do nothing not good enough attention seeking stupid hating ass hater?
Now I am being asked that question in love.
And it requires pause.
I think all of us who do the work in a certain way do that .
” If things get better for ( insert my groups here). My personal wants will too and I’ll do good , so let me sublimate those and focus on the goal"
Most of my heroines did that , work tirelessly fiercely , develop strong careers , enduring reputations, godlike patience and incredible praise . Tinged with the sorrow of how often it was personally taxing or unstable, seemingly alone.
What I want from WAM/Seal Press/Blogging/ Femfuture/Hugo/femfuture retreat/ etc …
To everyone who’s been asking, here’s Blackamazon’s answer to the “what do you want?” question. Click through to read the rest.
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